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$#!+ My Mom Says

by Ruth Ann Harnisch on 05/25/10 at 5:39 pm

Day 145

My mother always used to say, “Be careful what you wish for. You might get it.”  I made a big decision several weeks ago and I got what I wished for. That triggered an avalanche of change, which was inevitable.  I knew when I made the decision that if I got what I wanted, it would be like pulling a can out of the bottom of the supermarket display. The whole thing was going to tumble. Period.

So I brought these cans down on my own head.  Now instead of sabbatical days without agendas, I have things to sign, lists to make, people to call, decisions to make.  It might seem as if I made work for myself, but it’s really an investment in simplicity.

At the end of this busy is much less busy.  When I’m done, there will be less, and fewer, and smaller. 

It’s interesting to me how much less stressed I am over the long list of “to do”s that just showed up because I am completely conscious of being 100% responsible for the situation, that I invited it, knowing it would be short-term challenging-but-worth-it because I have a long-term purpose in mind. 

If I wanted to save myself a lot of angst in this life, I would remind myself of that every minute of every day:

“I invited these circumstances because of my desires, and the circumstances might be challenging but the higher purpose will make the effort worthwhile.”